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Here I am, once more, looking back on a year of my life. I’m certain I’m not the only one. A lot of people are calling this the worst year the world has seen in a long time, and I can understand why, but people are also very inclined toward focusing on negative details over positive ones. We’ve had some sad losses of life, seen some absurd politics go on, and endured increasingly ridiculous social outcries over things that shouldn’t matter. But, in spite of all that, the environment is putting itself back together thanks to protections that have been put in place, science is making breakthroughs and pushing boundaries we thought impossible to surpass not long ago, and, for our more immediate lives, the entertainment industry is at its highest peak in years. The world isn’t doing so great, but it’s really not doing too badly, either.

Funnily, as the world seems to have had a lot of extreme ups and downs this year, so have I, in my personal life.

For starters, I became part of an amazing team of students who built our first game together, and finished my degree following the game’s completion. I’ve held onto a job longer than any I’ve had before, and it’s offered me the chance to make enough money to survive while still giving me a flexible schedule for my life outside work. I moved out of my dad’s home, and I’m splitting bills in a nice house with a few long-time friends. Seems as if I’ve made some progress, although the weird part is, all of that happened in the first half of the year.

The second half of the year, however, I feel is where my life began slowing to a standstill. Someone I cared strongly about for a long time broke my heart, my trust, and my social confidence, and I’m still feeling its effects. My attempts at chasing a career in game development have gone nowhere since getting my degree. No recruiters looking for fresh talent, at least for my specialties, visited my game team’s project presentation. The coworkers I’ve come to appreciate are about to endure a massive break-up as changes in management and employment draw near, which only worries me more that I haven’t found a better job yet. It’s become more apparent to me than ever that I don’t connect with my old friends much at all anymore, and I find myself left to my own devices by intention more often than trying to enjoy their company. Even my art has suffered, as I haven’t found motivation to draw much at all, lately, despite my desire to put out more work than ever. My artistic intentions have fallen unbelievably behind, stuck in a backwards cycle that hurts itself each time around. Despite what progress I have made, I can’t deny that I feel unsuccessful, lonely at times, and short on things that make me happy.

Don’t let any of that build concern for me, though. I figure, sure, I could just sit and sulk about how my life isn’t perfect and happy and whatnot, but that’s a waste of time and energy. While I do have some unavoidable moments of depression, I’m taking steps to make changes, and by the end of January, many of them should be well into effect. I’ve already spoken on here about returning to college to increase my talents and, quite frankly, to also enjoy the social and academic experience of it. Additionally, I’m reducing contact with people who no longer have a positive impact on my life, to give myself more of a chance to find inner happiness, and make room for new people I may wish to keep around.

As I said before, people – myself included – tend to focus more on the things in life that get us down. There are good things happening to me, and I need to help myself see them more clearly. I’m sure my life could be in a much worse place, and I understand it may take a long time to get settled in the world. That being said, this year has been a mess of good and bad things for me and for the world, but at least we’re all still moving along. That’s decent enough for me, I suppose.

I’m never going to let go of my opinion that it’s a bit silly to judge the journey of life by “one year at a time”, but despite that, it’s nice to know that the start of this year coincides with a few small fresh starts for me. I’d like nothing better, right now. Hopefully that can turn into the beginning of getting my life a bit more on track in other fields, too.

Through all the good and bad things that have happened in the world, I hope all of you have at least had a decent time with this year. I wish for everyone that there has been time to grow and enjoy life at every chance we can get, and that life will continue to provide such chances in the times to come.

I bid you all a happy new year.

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Matt Strawn
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States
I've been drawing for as long as I can remember. I started by experimenting with different drawing styles at a young age, and when I reached the best of my abilities for the time, I constantly drew fictional characters I was fond of. I had a few original characters in my youth, but around the age of 14, I began drawing almost exclusively characters of my own design. There were a few fan characters in that mix, but I quickly learned that I had the potential to create worlds of my own, and I've been pushing at the limits of my imagination ever since. (The growth is probably fairly noticeable just by looking through my art over the years.) At this point, I don't know how I keep track of it all, but I've developed a few worlds and stories, most especially the countless characters that populate them. I do my best in drawing and writing about characters specifically, but I occasionally practice writing their stories and drawing the scenery of their worlds. As of right now, the only thing I regret is that I haven't actually completely finished any major projects I've started based on my imagination.

I was shy and not entirely confident in myself when I first joined deviantART; it's quite obvious to me now, when I read through my old journals and art descriptions. At this point, I'm still not a very socially active person, but I feel like I'm learning to take better control of my life over time. I'm always learning more about myself, slowly but surely, and I've gained a lot of insight into the minds and inner workings of those around me. The only thing I'm struggling with right now is figuring out what exactly I want to do in my future. I would do almost anything to just keep doing artwork for a living, and I hope someday to bring at least one thing from my imagination to life. But, the world doesn't always make things so easy, and so I'm doing what I can to work toward it through any methods open to me. For now, that includes college and forcing myself to actually finish one of my major personal projects.

One more thing, just so it's stated: I do occasionally draw for other people or take commissions. However, my mind works in ways I don't always understand, and I can never guarantee that I will get a requested piece of artwork done. Strange as it sounds, what I want to draw and what actually ends up on paper aren't always the same thing. I apologize for any standing requests I have accumulated over the years, but I can't be certain that something will be finished unless there is a dire importance to it. Schoolwork and paid commissions can fall into that degree of importance, but I ask that nobody pay me for any work before I complete it.
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NoConnectivity Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey, this is Señor Occidimus from the discords
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Novrith Featured By Owner May 12, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you kindly for the watch, it's very appreciated!
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Faullyn Featured By Owner May 13, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Your work is spectacular. I'd love to see more c:
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Novrith Featured By Owner May 13, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much, that's so very nice to hear! :)
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ingster Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2017
Hey do you play DnD at all? :3

What do you think of the idea of a illusionist bard? Do ya think this would even be a thing? Would a illusionist wizard be more efficient?
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Faullyn Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I do! Well, sort of. I play Pathfinder primarily, and I know it like the back of my hand. I've dabbled in some versions of D&D and similar games, though.

I haven't looked into being an illusionist in any system yet. I would imagine you can make it work, as there are spells designed for just that purpose in most magic class spellbooks! To what extent they would be helpful is the question, and I'm sure for that sort of magic you'd have to work with your Game Master on the specifics of how it all works. Research the classes in the system(s) you want to try it with, and their respective spell books, for all the answers you'd need. :D
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ingster Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2017
I see..............I am actually a new player myself, been wanting to play for the last 5-6 months but I haven't been able to find anyone who wants to do 5th edition via Skype specifically (I COULD do Discord but that does not broaden my likelihood that much), I wanted to go with 5th edition simply because it's the most recent one and it's been said to be the easiest for new players.........I don't wanna use Roll20 though, I wanna avoid going digital exept for note taking...............I dunno, I haven't had ANY luck...........

Well I know bards and wizzards has access to illusion spells, and warlocks depending on the god or spirit at hand............But being that I don't have the money for the rulebook and the PDF of the rulebook is such a nightmare to navigate, I haven't really been able to explore witch class would be the most effective as a illusionist (At what levels they get what spells, the things the rulebook offers to each class once certain levels are hit, any limitations like needing to study for spells before battle or one class has magic points while the other can spam the shit out of a spell, ect)
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bobbyv94 Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Student Traditional Artist
happy birthday
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LavenderEmo Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday
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SenaGosac Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017  Student Artist
Happy birthday sir. 
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